I miss you pa. Just talked to my mum about cny. And she said next year's cny might be different, and that thought of it scares me. Because i know it wouldnt be the same anymore. Why? Why god? Why out of everyone, why me? I know im not the only who have been through this. But then again.. i dont know how to deal with it. Man.. why didnt i appreciate things back then? Why? Why didnt i appreciate those family outings back then?
God, help.